Basketball Season Over

Saturday was the last basketball game of the season. Connor loved playing and we only missed one game due to illness. It was awesome watching my child make baskets and dribble down the court. To see his face after making that basket was priceless. I am reminded of what my parents must have felt when I made big accomplishments with my sports. We have two Saturdays to sleep in and only go to Saturday Services at Hebrew Congregation. March 14th marks the beginning of the Soccer Season. We will have the same coach as in basketball second session. Connor is so excited to play for Henry and with his son. We practice ball handling skills everytime we possibly can. I am not ready for the chilly morning games but so excited to watch Connor realize he can do more things then he thought he could. I love watching him grow up and we are in another growth spurt, he woke up the other day complaining of pain in his legs. He is eating so much now my grocery bill is up 50 percent now a days.

Connor now has his own wall in the house...

Double Date

Last Friday I went out with some friends for an early celebration of a good friend's birthday. We went to Gangas Mongolian Grill for a wonderful dinner. It was two married couples who were trying to set up me and a guy friend of theirs from the husbands' work. They are so cute always trying to set me up with their single friends. Friday was nice to have dinner and a night out with other parents but it became clear how different I am from my friends. I love my friends to be pieces, but my goodness they need to losen up. I realize we are parents and fun is different then it was before. They have lost the emotional passionate part of life and their husbands are so frustrated.
A question was asked of me while we were eating dinner that still sits with me. "Cyndee, would it not be much easier to have a man around?" I didn't really think about the answer it was quick and obvious "NO!" Why when I do everything myself and not totally struggling at doing it. I do the cooking, cleaning, laundry, playing with my son, getting him to all his sports and provide for us. Why do I need a man in my life? It is at this point that I realized how truly strong and independent I am. My friends married because they felt it was what they had to do and if you ask me they are not truly in love if that was the case then the passion and physical part of their marriage would not be so bad. The husband could not believe I listen to Sports Radio, Jim Rome to be specific. That I am not shy about my sexuality. Yes, I am a mother but damn I am a woman first. I know when I meet the right one but for now God hasn't blessed me with my soul mate yet. He has blessed me with so much as it is how can I question his plan and beg for my soul mate before it is to be our time.
I had a blast with my married friends and next month it will be my son's step mother's 30th birthday and I am helping her celebrate this fun new time in her life and the following week is my dearest best friend is getting married to his long time girlfriend. It should prove to be interesting and fun...
So for now I am confortable being known as the "single friend" who every one tries to set up. I will use it to meet new friends and know that not every date has to have sparks and it is okay if there isn't.

Valentines Day Weekend

We had basketball at 8:30 Valentines Day, then we had nothing planned for the rest of the day or evening. When I woke up there was a picture message awaiting me on my phone. It was a really nice thing for him to do. We are trying this dating thing and he had plans for the entire day with his mother. Too Sweet and a good son is what he is. So Connor and I spent the day once we got home cleaning up and doing laundry, then after dinner we decided to build a fort and Cons wanted to pretend he was camping in the woods last night, so we pulled out his second mattress into the living room and made the fort over the bed for a little while until he realized it made watching his favoriate shows on Noggin to hard to see. Thus the fort moved to the couch and took up most of the front room. Below are pictures of the morning wake up picture message and the flowers left for me before we left for basketball. Then the fort we made.




















The First Fort











Today is another day of deep cleaning. Connor was so excited to scrub a pot for me and clean the kitchen counters. Yes, my son loves to clean and to help me. We scrubbed up the bathroom and kitchen this morning then started to clean up the front room. Cons wanted to show me how strong he was and I managed to capture it all on camera for once. lol

This weekend

So I ended up going out on Friday where I was reminded how I am not cut out for partying anymore. I am a mother through and through. I don't care if I have a social life really. I love being a mother and providing for myself and my son. Don't get me wrong I had fun but I can't handle partying and being a mother. Mother is first in my heart and I can't let anything come in the way of that.

I went out with my son's step mother and we had a blast until the end of the night...a little too much to drink and the ever so hard on myself let it all go...I have never cried so hard in my life but it felt good the next morning. It was like I was hundreds of pounds lighter.

Me and Ashley...

Single Gal

How do people find time to blog about everything in their lives. I know Connor is four and that takes up my time enough. How do those with babies find the time and energy to post blogs nearly everyday? I could never do it. Beside who is really interested in me and my four years old daily life? We have a great steady predictable routine with all the cute little conversations we have which are only cute and entertaining to me.
Other than all my friends and those I know are getting married and having babies and I am barely keeping a social life that is on life support more so then ever. Hell, I am working 50-60 work weeks and being the mother and father to my beautiful son and keeping all the bills current and not only able to give us what we need but most of what we want as well. Trying to get better about going to the gym and taking care of myself, isn't that enough and on top of it I am worried about being single while everyone else is busy starting families. Yes I want to fall in love and have another baby, but I am okay single and comfortable calling the shots and not settling for the shake of being in a relationship. If that makes me intimadating then well guess what I am a bad ass bitch.
I have learned my instincts are dead on and that I should never talk myself out of following that instinct. That one day I will find that confident strong manly man who is right for me until then I will have fun dating and never settling if it doesn't feel exactly right! I am not afraid to be single and being a good mother I will always do what is right for my son. I am not less of a mother because I am single and rasing him without his father. I will have the perfect man brought into my life when I least expect it and it will be wonderful but until then I am not less of a woman because I am strong enough to stay single and not jump into a relationship with every man I go out on a date with.