November

Not that anyone reads this but I continue to post for Connor and Peanut. This month is going to be busy but awesome...of course Thanksgiving is coming up, but first we have "GG" "Grams" my mother's mom coming in town this friday and staying for about a month. Then next Sunday is my baby boy's 5th birthday! I cant believe my lil man is getting so big and how much he does on his own. More independent then I ever thought he would be, I try to do things for him and it frustrates him, like buckling his seat belt , opening and closing the car door, zipping his coats and buttoning his dress shirts. We are learning to tie our shoes now and write our name, he is doing better at identifying the letters in his and mommy's names. He is doing much better in school now that he is in the afternoon and I feel more like a real parent picking him up from school.
After Connor's birthday we have a sonogram appointment that Tuesday the 24th at 11:30. My grandma, Mom and Connor will be there with me. I am under strict orders to let my little sister know first before anyone else outside of the room. I have been so sour lately it seems everyone has been finding out what gender their babies are and some are not nearly as far as me. I will be over 20 weeks when we do the sonogram. Overwhelming that i am nearly half way done with this pregnancy. After the sonogram we have Thanksgiving where I am to fit in THREE families this year. Sperm Donor's, Jerome's and mine! That wraps up November

Afternoon Pre-School

Today was the first day of Connor going to afternoon pre-school. The move didnt come because he was having problems in the morning class, it was because of me and my selfish wishes. I hated that I wasnt able to ever pick him up or drop him off, that I was missing all the class parties and events. After talking with the Daycare provider and my manager, I made the decision to move Connor to the afternoon class.
It felt so good to see his face light up when he walked out of the classroom and saw me standing there waiting for him. It is worth the pain of changing our night time routine, although it only means pushing bedtime up by thirty minutes...Connor is adjusting to alot these days and I am trying to help him through it all but sometimes I feel like a bad mother for doing all this to him.

SUNDAY WAS A BEAUTIFUL DAY!

Connor and I had such a wonderful Sunday and busier then I expected it to be. We slept until we woke up on our own, no alarms were set to go off. Then we picked out some breakfast and ate in my bed watching Disney Cartoons. Then it was time to pick up the house and get ready to go make an appearance at "Deli Day" at the Temple. We finally made it out of the house around 1pm. I promised Connor we wouldnt stay long just enough time to eat so wonderful comfort Jewish food and see Bubbe. Needless to say we didnt get home until five pm! There were many more kids there then I anticipated, so Cons went off and played his little heart out on the playground while I got to socialize with the adults...
It was fun but I felt like my mother after networking with I later after business card exchange were high power vice presidents of Spirit (my employer as well) I headed inside to catch some more food to eat. At that stage I where I am hungry ten minutes after I finish a meal! While eating I managed to get advice on pain medication for the C-section that should keep me from having the same experience as the first. Valuable info and so glad to have it, in fact the doc wants to know when the section will be done so he can try to schedule himself to be the one taking care of me...how wonderful and comforting.
So after all the talking and catching up and how much I remind everyone of my mother, which I took as a compliment, lol! It was time to gather the huge bags of corned beef, hailah, and other Jewish food, chase after Connor, and manhandled the stacks of books the library gave us for our home library, we made our way to the car and eventually home for the night. We made it to the kitchen put away the food and back to the couch. Went through our new books and watched some Noggin programing. Finally it is nine at night and lil man is bathed and sound asleep. I am finishing my manicure preparing myself for a new shift at work starting tomorrow. I decided to move Connor to afternoon pre-school so I can be the one to pick him up from school. It will work better with the baby in the spring/summer.

Second Trimester here we come

I am finding that I dont have nearly as much time to blog as I would like so far in this pregnancy. A quick recap of the first trimester... September 3rd @ 3:26am I "peed on the stick" lol and numbly stared at the plus sign and straight line in disbelief! I never thought I would have a second child. Jerome and I have talked about having a child but never this soon, wanted to get settled and married first. But guess the one upstairs had different plans for us, and I am slowly accepting that. But anyway, I only took the test because my neighbor had an extra one and said my "stomach bug" sounded like her morning sickness. lol...
So I was about five weeks along when the family doctor confirmed by blood test the pregnancy and the OB appointment was set up for October 1st. Mom and Connor went with me that Thursday afternoon.
I wanted to make it a special day for Connor, so I took the day off work and while he was in school I ran my erronds and we met Bubbe for lunch and went on to the appointment. Author Dehart took care of me when I was pregnant with Connor so I would never think of seeing anyone else this time around. So after doing the routine stuff, we did a sonogram. As Author put it, a fun one just to see the peanut. Mom and Connor were there and it was amazing to see Connor staring at the tiny baby in my tummy moving all around.
So until about week 16 I was so sick to my stomach and ate when and what I could, mostly Sprite and Twizzlers. Tons of water and soup were staples in those days. The worst part was Lunch time in the office, considering I sit right by the microwave and fridge, the smells were awful and at times drove me to leave for lunch when I didnt intend on it. This was about 13 weeks...

So here I am in the second trimester about 18 weeks along and I feel great! A little more tired then usual but all in all I feel great. I have gone from feeling the flutters to straight out kicks, I was shocked that so early I am feeling this one. But I keep reminding myself this pregnancy is 180 different from Connor's. This last week was check up time and it took longer then I was comfortable with to find the heart beat, but peanut was moving around so much and never to a spot that allowed us to hear its heart. But it was a relief when I heard it strong and clear about 148 beats a minute, Connor's was always around 150. Maybe another boy, but I have a feeling it will be a girl...We will know November 25 @ 3:30pm. I will have Four Generations there for it, My Grandmother, Mother and Son!!!!! I have been craving HoneyCrisp Apples and Chips with Chunky Salsa...with Clam Chower from Cinnamins Deli. Since the beginning I have only gained two pounds! It looks like much more....This is about 18 weeks

October

So it has been a long while since I wrote here...life has been well crazy to say the least! It started around June, my son's father came to me asking for a place to crash and get back on his feet. See he wasnt welcome anymore at his parents or ex girlfriends house and his sister wasnt about to let him stay with them...and me being so nice I agreed for a few months it would be fine and let him stay on my couch. then all of a sudden in mid July another friend showed up on my door step looking for a place to stay and I said yes for the weekend...then I couldnt get either of them out once I noticed cash and valuables disappearing that I had hidden away.
Finally August 24th I very forcefully told them to get out and went to the police and filed reports for all the missing items and money. Told them I was asking a police officer to escort me home and make sure it was safe for me and my son to be there. of course they bounced before the cop could escort me home...had a neighbor watching my place to let me know if they left...after a trip to walmart to get new locks we went home and cleaned the house of all their stuff and washed our hands of the creeps.
Now we are into September and I am recovering financialy from the theft and forgery of my checks and a closed bank account and all that goes along with Identity theft. My neighbor and I were talking about babies and how we miss our boys being little babies. I made a comment about not having my period and how it wasnt really unusal. Two weeks later we were once again joking about it and I mentioned my weird episode of being sick after only two pieces of pizza and how it was happening more often. She had one pregnancy test left and gave it to me, I was like I dont need it. She dared me to take it and so before going to bed that night I got it all ready to take in the morning. I couldnt sleep that night at least not really well, so I finally got out of bed around 3:30am and went to the bathroom and was like well it is sitting there I might as well take it now!
So here I am a Thursday morning four and a half hours before work and peed on the stick....stared numbly at the plus sign that immediatly showed up and the second line appeared too! It took atleast five minutes for me to get up and realize what that plus meant....neighbor got about 50 texts at 3:45 in the morning! Got into my family doctor to confirm the stick and she bubbly shot into my room with prenatals, she has been wanting me to have another one for year.

So this takes us into October now...

On the first I finally had my OB appointment and told doc who is a close family friend I needed proof I was indeed pregnant. See I never really though I would have another child and still be unmarried and all...indeed I am not only pregnant but was nearly 13 weeks along. Meaning I have been pregnant since July! Craziness I know...Connor is absolutly thrilled and went to see the baby with me and mom...that baby moved around so much more then Connor did at that gustation.
So I am due a week before my thirth birthday! Still a little in shock honestly that this time next year I will be a mother of TWO children! I only thought I was busy before...oh wow....
So I am excited for this journey and up for it all. I am strong and not going to waver in this. I am going to enjoy this pregnancy no matter what. I have been told I have that glow...

Second Baby

So I just found out I am expecting my second baby, which will be here after my son turns five. I am starting to show a whole lot earlier this time around. I am waiting on my family doctor to complete the referal so I can get into my OB asap to confirm a due date and how far along I am. My family doctor thinks I am as far as nine weeks putting due date in the beginning of April end of March. I am thinking I am more like six weeks along.
But Jerome and I are excited to be welcoming a new one into our family. Jerome and I have been dating for the last two years more on and off but we have been together more lately. We have each brought up marriage over the last year and we have looked at rings. Connor calls him Dad and is so excited to be a big brother. Already he is touching my tummy and worrying about the baby. He is convinced we are having a boy again. I am torn between finding out what sex the baby is and having it be a surprise again. Thank goodness I have Jerome around this time to help make those decisions! It is going to be a totally different experience this time around having the father there with me. Now he wont be able to make the doctors visits because of his work schedule and school but I know he would much rather be there then not.
I am truly going to enjoy the entire pregnancy this time around although I did enjoy being pregnant with Connor. I have someone else to help with names and make other decisions. I will post pictures every month of the progress and will be keeping a journal for the baby as much as time allows that is. I started one with Connor when I first found out I was pregnant and then got involved in school and work so that was forgotten about. Hopefully I will do better this time...

Update

So I havent had time to post on here in a long time. Life has been busy to say the least. Everytime I turn around something else is happening that limits my time. So where to begin? Beginning of June is a good place to start...my boyfriend and I have been talking about him moving in with me and Connor. Slowly but surely he has been moving bits and pieces into my place, then there was a pregnancy scare thrown in there. Then I get a phone call from Connor's father, Mack. He was needing a place to stay not wanting to allow the negative cycle to repeat by moving into his familys place. After much debate with myself I allowed him to crash on my couch. Knowing it will be a few months of discomfort finacially and personal space wise. It was the best thing for him and would be okay for Connor being able to see his father every day finally.
What I didnt realize was that he was a built in babysitter and allow me to work more as well. So once again balancing a social life and being a mother. Top things off with my starter on my car rapidly going out, another reason to have Mack around. he fixes that kind of stuff.
Oh yeah then there is Ryan who is a sweatheart and in my life and always supportive and helpful when it comes to my finacial life. he is a great guy
Well that is all the time I have for now to catch everyone up on my goings on...the dryer just stopped and lil man needs to be moved out of my bed into his own