Okay so the last week or so has been insane in the drama department. First last Saturday I was suppose to go to a movie with a friend who then cancelled on me because he didn't want me to see him without his braids done. So then I caved in and went on a blind date, since there is no reason to waste a babysitter. So I went on the blind date and it was nice, but it was friends nice but dude got all serious and crazy serious on me! After only four days he tried to stay the night and brought laundry over with him. Then he tried to tell me he loved me! He got pissed when I said I wanted to slow down and date. Dating to him means exclusive I guess and tried to invite himself to a business dinner. We had customers in town this week and Friday was dinner and cocktails. No spouses or dates! Then tonight I am suppose to babysit my best friend's little girl while she takes the older kids out for dinner and a movie....guess what the dumb ass invited himself along to her house! Talk about stalker!!!!!
So Thursday when I took back the dirty laundry he convientaly left at my place, I pretty much ended it with him since he wasn't getting the hint or understood what slow down or date meant. When I was leaving his place I saw an old flame, I was such a bitch to him back in the day. But anyway, we have over the last couple of years kept bumping into eachother. The last time I bumped into him, he was engaged to be married. Broke my heart, see I do have feelings for him and would settledown in a heart beat for that man. In all the years he is the only one who wanted or that I let see past the boobs and booze...the fun crazy party girl. He saw me for me and that always scared the shit out of me thus I did everything I could to push him away. We spent Valentines day 2004 together and the next week I got pregnant by someone else.
To make a long story short...we went out last night and I had the best time! It was like we were never apart or had our own heartbreak stories. He told me how he was glad I had Connor when I did. They say things happen for a reason and I am a true believer now!
So hopefully things will work out....it feels so good to have someone around who knows you so well and that your parents truly adore...my sister on the other hand...those two don't get along so well. He dislikes her for how she treats me and those around her. Oh yeah and the fact she acts black and refuses to date anything but ghetto black boys...there is a difference she could find an educated man who isn't ghetto living a "street life". But that is an entirely nother blog that I dont have the energy to write.
